Have you ever felt real emotion?

So deep, it completely engulfs you and renders you helpless.

It ripples out from your very core ... Not sure of the welcome it will receive.

To truly be in love devours you in real emotion.

It hurts.
It heals.
It loves...

-Darby

So I'm sitting in my car. Freshly released from
the penitentiary known as UNO Chicago grill ... And now I'm alone.

No family. No friends. No nothing.

It always ends up this way for me.

You die alone in the end.

-Darby

update!

So I've lost my ipod.

It's soo true what they say about those things. They're like crack man! lol

I'm really really sad...

buuuuutttt...

^_^

Things may be looking up, due to a new position my job offered me.
Ultimately it'll mean more money/more work.
And that's just fine and dandy with me. I'm trying to stay more focused.

So this past week I was on VaCa visiting family and friends in the 757 area.
So good times, some dull times, some absolutely wtf times.

But it got me to thinkin' -- There's truly a price for everything we do. Or .. if you don't so much like the word "price", there are definite consequences and effects to the choices we make. I don't believe there are really right and wrong choices though. It's just our job to be as aware as possible of the consequences of our actions and to make sure these choices are helping us continue to become/ be the person we are striving to be.

This past week I gained .. and lost. I made some decisions that didn't have the brightest outcome .. but it didn't have the most negative either. And I think I'm alright with that.


yep ...

I think it'll be ok.

Suuuuuuuuuupppp

- darbs

So between yesterday and today I've been thinking about my past relationships

... And how much of a failure I was at them

Never opening up, using them for sex, never letting go

... I was just horrible.

Sooo I started to think about what lead me to be how I am now. What sparked the ruin?
And I began to think about the puppy love ... The first one you fall into when love is still true and pure.

Mine was horrible. Full of want, need, love ... And lies.

Big lies.

I don't lie in relationships at all now though. In fact you might say I'm a little too truthful. I don't sugarcoat anything.

:shrug:

When did you become disillusioned by love?
When did your love-ruin begin?







- darbs

Incomplete study of hand against wall I'm doing.

I'm ready to fall back into art.

F everything else.


- darbs

Queen of being unproductive and gluttony...

We are who we are?

Or are we who we want to be?




- darbs